got interrupted by annoying brother....as early as 7!! gotta baby-sitting him at stadium today...aarghhh!! i hate crowded place...noisy, no privacy and the worst part is i know nobody...hate this...feels like starting over in a new damn school...you have to fit in, feels belong, try to be friendly, smile till your mouth cramp.....lonely....well..at least there's a lot of things to be seen....1st thing 1st, i saw a hottie today!! (guy ofcos)....unfortunate for me, he's younger and shorter....so cute man....(sorry my love, just kidding k)...looking at the kids running around on the track, jumping, marching....reminds me of old age....the school where I learn lots of things....many frens, lovely teachers, probably my fav school so far...recall....i found my first love here....n we still bestfrens till now....the 2nd greatest so far...he's nice just a little bit ego...rich, but money isn't everything...teachers...i had a lot of wonderful teachers here...who i never hate..unlike SMESH...no recall about my secondary school as there are no good memories at all....when i was little, i always dream of being teenager...couldn't even wait of growing up...but now, i wish i was still a small kid.,.no problems, people loved you cause you're cute....got scolded but no hard feelings cause you don't know anything....hahaha...human...never satisfied of anything....gosh! i'm so bored....even on9 is not that much fun anymore....everything just the same everyday....
track and field...my feet wasn't as strong as it was before...i quit running cause mom won't let me wear tights....so feet? no function...i gain weight since i quit...even my boyfie said i'm chubby...no!!!! i dislike all this fats...go away! i try to exercise but it doesn't work...so i minimize my meal....i rarely eat....i know it's not the best way but that's all i can do....sometimes in a day, i just didn't eat....losing appetite lately.....hope i lost weight...
now is ten in the morning...sitting alone typing....watching people..probably the best thing i could do..eat? no...i haven't....miss my boyfie so much...wish he is here,....where the hell is that doraemon when i need his 'pintu suka hati'??? i'll find that cat.....damn!! too many cute little kids....see? i like kids, but only watching them...taking care? that doesn't sound like me at all...currently sipping milo with my 4 year old brother...i trained him to queue by himself and i watched from a far.... he's four! can't be so dependent...next year is tadika year for him....as far i can remember, i can already read at 3...but he couldn't recognize many letters....i'm starting to get worried....i had taught him lots of things but kept playing around....i think mommy is being so soft to him....isn't like before at all...well....tired of typing,..wanna go sightseeing now....TTFN...^^
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