31/10/2010

well...there's good news and bad news today.....today is the birthday of my beloved brother...the best brother in whole wide world....my favourite older brother...same attitude n when u meet him, as if you meet my twin! i love him so much and believe me...i can sacrifice a lot of things for him...cause he always stood for me when i'm in trouble....he saved me from a lot of troubles and that makes me owe him....i couldn't even imagine life without him....i used to cry so much when he entered boarding school before...for five whole years....when he finished his SPM, i thought I already had him by my side forever, but it didn't happen the way i wish....matrix and maktab keep taking him away from me...then he told me someday i'll leave him later and he will be the one crying that moment....i laugh when he's around me cause yeah....he is a funny person literally....he made me laugh even if i didn't want to....i hate him when he did that...but still i love him....he is a becoming teacher, a handsome basketballer, a sweet boyfriend to his girlfren of course, a wonderful son and lastly the best brother in the whole universe!!

enough for the brother story...back to the bad news....i got into a fight with my boyfie.....which i really hate to do.....i love him so much...i want him to know that....but sometimes it's just i couldn't give total commitment to this relationship....he is being so nice to me and i'm the opposite way around...i get angry whenever i want...and he had always be so patient to me....why?? all this while i had been dreaming for this kind of boyfie, but WTF am i doing to him?? I LOVE HIM!! well...you see...my boyfie had been hit by a darn people....he hurt his leg...and couldn't even walk properly....and that happen because of me....i can't forgive myself for that...since the first time i met him, i gave nothing but trouble to him...how i wish i can replaced him now....how i wish i can take the whole pain away....how i wish i can share it though...how i wish i can be right by his side this moment...wipe his tears and pain away...tell him directly in ears how much i love him....hold his hand tightly...hug him to comfort him....i'm so sorry darl.....i can't...we're so far away and there's nothing i can do but cry...get well soon for me okay? i want to see you chasing me when i tease you later....i'll be back in few weeks and i want you to run okay? i'll made you promise me that....I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.....

Quotes of the Day:

There is no feeling more comforting and consoling than knowing you are right next to the one you love....

inila kaki my boyfie yg accident.....

my beloved brother.....he's 22 now...